(**Note: I had thought this post below was published at the beginning of this year, but just now found that it was saved as a ‘draft’. So, I’m publishing it today. It’s now been a little over 13 months since my husband passed away, but everything else is about the same.**)
Well, it’s been close to 8 months since my husband passed away. Christmas was tough. Even tougher since one of my closest friends passed away unexpectedly in early December. She’d called me DAILY since my husband passed away… She was my ROCK! Life had begun to move forward. Then, she was gone. GONE. Her heart. Life is so very fragile.
Words cannot express how much I still miss my husband, and my friend. You couldn’t write a more depressing story and have anyone believe it, right? Sigh….. but you know what? I’d already lost more than half a dozen other friends in the previous few months, and dealt with it, with her there to help. At our ages, we lose a lot of people.
I’d planned and promised for months to officially get the website going again no later than January 1st, but I explained all the above so you’ll understand the delay. I’ve actually already been sewing microbead forms for some of you during the months the announcement was still on the website that it was closed. Many people had written in during the time it was first closed and I’d promised to email them to take their orders first before reopening publicly. I did the best I could with that, but there were so many, and I’d do them in batches, waiting for responses before going on to the next batch, etc… I am sure I’ve missed people, please forgive me if it was you!
Anyway, life goes on, right? I’ve got the sewing room humming again, and am here, officially, open again! FINALLY! I’ll take orders as they come, and will sew each one and ship as soon as possible, just please realize that occasionally there may be several orders coming in close together and it may take me a few days longer than it used to take me to sew them previously. My new philosophy? It takes as long as it takes.
You see, life really has changed in more ways than one. I’ve decided that life is too fragile and short to only sit in front of the sewing machine. My gift to myself in recent months was that I made many new friends, went to a new church, volunteered at a food pantry, reconnected with work friends from long ago, and in short, just tried to make my life more joyful in whatever ways I could, rather than dwell on just sadness.
I’m happy to say that the friends I’ve made now are wonderful people. I’m now living a life more open to adventure… and fun where I can find it. I’ve met other widows in my church that like to go places with me. We go to movies, library activities, plays, on day-trips, etc… and we help each other remember to smile. I’ve renewed friendships with people I worked with for years and enjoyed outings with them as well. Surviving after a loss will either break you, or propel you, and I guess I’ve had some of both.
It’s a new year, with new goals. My first one was to officially reopen the website and get back to the sewing that gave meaning to my life. All the breast cancer survivors out there are very dear to my heart.
Next, I’m also going to be decluttering more in my house, doing a few other crafts with friends, doing a little minor redecorating, and just basically lightening my load of stress along the way in whatever ways I can. I’ll be here for you, just please have patience with me, friends, because on some days, the sewing machines will be turned off and I’ll be on some other adventure for a day. Like I said, life is fragile, and short, you have to enjoy it NOW!